I am touched by the chance to share more than six years of my heart’s sojourn poured into more than 400 poems, writings, and offerings on this site. This was originally a ‘secret’ place to write when I felt stirred by words that seemed to unravel themselves. I was speaking to God, the Presence that comforted and granted all that my inner soul ever longed for. I did not expect to be found or read. I had 20 followers and we read each other’s poetry and encouraged one another.
In 2011, I wrote “Heart Motions” which expressed my heart’s experience of drawing near to God, feeling summoned and the need to surrender the false possessions of the heart.
My Joy comes from the gift of Grace from The Lord Jesus Christ. I wake each day with anticipation. My first thought is gratitude and a salutation to The Lord. In my heart is love that deepens like a river that swells with fresh water from an unlimited source. The peace that I longed for lives now in me, by His Presence. My story is just like everyone’s. Life had challenges and I was a great distance from perfect! The most miraculous thing about salvation is Forgiveness.
Psalm 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
That is a journey for us all.
John 1:16 From the fullness of his grace, we have all received one blessing from another.
I can still be stunned and challenged by life’s surprises but there is a permanent core that is ‘unshakable’. There can be acute pain and suffering that we encounter in our mortal lives. Knowing God as the source of unceasing love, security, protection gives strength and courage.
This new way of living, seeing and receiving His Love that has altered my heart and perspective. I am about to be 66 years old and these are the years of the most joy and contentment. My heart soars and I wake with a smile each day. Yes, I do feel the aches and pains that life brings and suffering does not escape me-but something rises from within and lifts me from my frame-I am the heart that feels, sees, lives through Christ in me and this surges as a Life that is more than any circumstance or condition.
Isaiah 40:31 …but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Many parts of my heart’s story are candidly revealed in the poems that are archived on this site. It is vital to note, though that the “story’s” that are woven into our lives have a purpose with meaning to distill, yet they are not our identity. We cannot get lost in what happened in the past nor in something that might be attempting to absorb us and draw you away from the truth in this day.
Philippians 3:13 Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,
There is a part of ourselves at the core of our hearts that is of spirit. It is like a seed implanted by God that is waiting to grow…
When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, The moon and the stars, which You have ordained; What is man that You take thought of him, And the son of man that You care for him? Yet You have made him a little lower than God, And You crown him with glory and majesty!
…and to receive it’s nourishment by being awakened by receiving God’s love and the anointing of His Spirit.
One of my earliest entries was this poem called “More Love”. I was calling deeply to God for a healing and filling of my heart with His Love.
I loved God since I can remember thinking and feeling but I was a broken one early in life, then again and again. The life that The Lord designed for me was long and wide with many unexpected turns and mountain ranges to navigate. My life has been blessed with many treasures, miracles and amazing journey’s that I am very grateful for. From the people that I have met, I have learned that the greater the obstacles faced and overcome, or suffering known; the deeper and richer will be the experience of God’s Love and Grace when it pours in.
John 15:16 – 16 You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you.
I have written many poems about dancing. One of my favorites is called “Would that I had danced for you”.
Ephesians 4-22 “that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, 23 and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, 24 and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.”
There comes a moment that we lean on God’s door and ask for help, finally understanding that we cannot fix life or walk further alone. The “way” that we have been praying has not worked; our approach seems fruitless. God’s Love becomes the most important thirst of your heart. Everything else can fall away.
1 Peter 1:23
“for you have been born again not of seed which is perishable but imperishable, that is, through the living and enduring word of God.”
In my life I have witnessed the face of love in the hearts of people in many different and far places, some in the midst of challenging circumstances that called for a supreme courage and personal strength. I was humbled by the contrast of what I formerly called “challenges” in my own life. My heart has been altered by each person that I have met on my journeys. I have experienced their courage and their strength in times of dire need to survive in conflict, war and circumstances that would invoke terror in most.
For all though, in facing what we fear the most we face the distance between our own shadows and God, who desires to embrace us in His Light and Merciful comfort. As we come Near to God, we find our hearts altered by the Miracle of His Love and Grace. The first dawns of joy and awe stir us to a boldness that offers encouragement and new strength.
We begin to realize that our outer experiences in this temporal world are bridges to finding God’s Presence which is eternal. We are called by His Love for us which is unceasing and relentless. He is our true Teacher and He calls us by our name.
It is said that we are called “His Beloveds”. I only know that when I pray I feel and witness The Presence of The Lord most directly and this experience can cause my whole being to bow, fall, pour, tear with delight and soak with waves of gratitude.
Now my life is so filled with joy and the experience of God Love and Near Presence. I don’t claim that all obstacles are removed or all is easy, but my perspective is altered. It is as if I have walked through to the other side of a waterfall and can see with new eyes and have an inner root that is fed by a strength and stamina larger than my own; it is of The Father, My Lord. The Love that sustains me is a constant that does not change with the circumstances of life. Many times I am so filled with emotion that I am moved to write for the need to express it.
There are so many poems that spill over from my heart to simple speak to God and pour out love, gratitude, prayers, deep “askings” and all that I know that is heard.
One of my many favorite Psalms…
You, God, are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water.
2 I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
3 Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
4 I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
5 I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
6 On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.
7 Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you;
your right hand upholds me.
9 Those who want to kill me will be destroyed;
they will go down to the depths of the earth.
10 They will be given over to the sword
and become food for jackals.
11 But the king will rejoice in God;
all who swear by God will glory in him,
while the mouths of liars will be silence.
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