I am touched by the chance to share more than six years of my heart’s sojourn poured into more than 400 poems, writings, and offerings on this site. This was originally a ‘secret’ place to write when I felt stirred by words that seemed to unravel themselves. This is really not so much about “the art of poetry”, all is a simple form of speaking to God, the Presence that comforted and granted all that my inner soul ever longed for. I did not expect to be found or read.
I had 20 followers in 2011, each of a different background and faith from all parts of the world. we read each other’s writing and were like a small “family” that spurred one another to go deeper and discover our potential with fearlessness and persistence.
The site has grown and now reaches nations all across the globe far from home reaching from the USA to the Far East, India, Cambodia, Russia, Europe, the UK, Canada, South America, Africa, Indonesia, Sweden, Norway, Eastern Europe. I remember a talented poet from Syria in the early days that we used to read weekly. Then he mentioned conflict, family and within weeks he suddenly disappeared. Soon all realized that he and his family had become swept up in the war for survival. Then he was lost forever.
When we reach out and speak to one another with candor and heart in any form we link in a meaningful way. To me, it matters. We leave our homes and our neighborhoods and “we knock on each other’s doors”.
Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me. The one who conquers, I will grant him to sit with me on my throne, as I also conquered and sat down with my Father on his throne. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.
Writing has been like talking to God
Writing, for me has always been a bit like a testimony before God. He is the Presence that has always been the audience that I have spoken to, even when I wrote as a child, an adolescent and throughout my life. All words from the Heart- everything that pours and precipitates into word upon the page feels like a flow that is given out as the honesty of that moment, told with vulnerable and unabashed intimacy- only as one would speak to a Listener capable of receiving all, hearing all and understanding all.
Poetry easily can become prayer. My life as a Christian is constantly reborn.
I have found myself in writing and prayer and become renewed again and again. My experience of rebirth and renewal in my Christian life is the most intimate and precious of all that has prompted writings, most especially the sacred poetry. The early poems expressed my desire to disclose my distress and suffering before God and this is repeated often. I repent in writing, appeal, confess, share great moments of joy and rapture and also the deepest moments of pain and desire to address God for His Mercy.
I call on you, my God, for you will answer me; turn your ear to me and hear my prayer.
Many tears have flowed as the words have been written and at the same time, much joy and peace has been released. What readers don’t realize is that after something is written, Peace comes because the appeal, or “conversation with The Lord” has been completed, and He answers me. This is important to reveal at the onset. There is rebirth in revealing and relating to God regardless of “how” you speak to him.
We come from near and far. All over the world hearts pour out with cries that Our God does hear. My calls are not different than yours.
Writing, poetry and journaling has long been an expression of my desire to share, experience and know God. For me that “conversation” prompted deeper a heart relationship through prayer and study of the Bible. The desire to know God prompts a deep journey that is full, wide and far.
We also each have a personal story that challenges us toward seeking a Higher Power. Sometimes, great loss or suffering moves our hearts closer to God as we ask for the healing of a wound that nothing on this earth can calm.
There are so many that suffer in our world today. If we step back from our own lives and think about others we often realize that what we think that we cannot withstand pales in comparison with what others carry as daily burdens.
Galatians 6.2 “Bear one another’s burdens, and thereby fulfill the law of Christ.”
Many around the world read this site and understand what I am saying. We do not all come from relatively unremarkable childhoods with families that did not harm us not did our lives or have the misfortune of crossing paths with evil and excessive trauma. That though, is very true for many and they carry this silently.
I have had the privilege of traveling to the farthest corners of this world in following my heart, and have seen more than most first hand in regions of war, crises and extreme poverty. I have walked alongside and amidst the lives of those at the hands of grave injustice and witnessed the pain of the powerlessness of unarmed, un-named peoples occupied and overtaken by unseen and advancing armies. My soul has witnessed genocide in our times. My heart has seen the face of evil both in my own life and in it magnified face in the world that we live in.
1 John 3:17 “But whoever has the world’s goods, and sees his brother in need and closes his heart against him, how does the love of God abide in him?”
This grew my faith in God and put my heart’s dependency upon him. On my own, I can do nothing. I needed to learn to speak to him and discern His Voice to lead me for the most simple promptings. “Lord, protect me today. I trust you for everything. I have faith that you will provide a place for me to put my head to rest tonight, some food to eat, you will guide my steps today and show me the purpose of this day that is Your Will”…A long ago prayer.
I learn to Pray…We cannot live without Prayer
I, like most all Christians come from the far country of a deeply broken life.
In my life, the reckoning that turned me forever to a moment of never turning back again, came after I had to suffer enough and lose more and more until I hit a bottom that was beneath all bottoms. I forgot all the chances that He gave me before. The encounters that I had with Him had faded in the darkness. I was without all hope. I had suffered a final betrayal and I could not even lift a limb to get to the emergency room. I was finished.
Then My Father, The LORD God, stepped in. He spoke directly to me and moments later, I was prompted to lift those limbs and follows His directions. Those words changes my life forever. The next 24 hours led me to His Holy Presence and the direct JOY of His Holy Spirit, His Love, His Love and a path that I have been on ever since.
Lord, by such things men live; and my spirit finds life in them too. You restored me to health and let me live. Surely it was for my benefit that I suffered such anguish. In your love you kept me from the pit of destruction; you have put all my sins behind your back. For the grave cannot praise you, death cannot sing your praise; those who go down to the pit cannot hope for your faithfulness.
I say to God my Rock, “Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?” My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, “Where is your God?” Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
I do remember that in the times of deepest trials I did turn towards rather than away from God. But it was towards what I knew God knew to be at that time. For me, it took time to peel away layers of belief that had been ingrained upon me since childhood and through confusing experience, until the the sky in my own heart cleared aside enough room so that I was able to see, hear and listen to all that was calling to me for so long.
I had not been able to receive it because I was in my own shadow looking backwards and into the mortal word for answers, or to philosophies that all came to fallible ends. All seeking leads to more lack or to emptiness, not a direct God of Love that could be Known.
Acts 17:26-27 “And he made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined allotted periods and the boundaries of their dwelling place, that they should seek God, and perhaps feel their way toward him and find him. Yet he is actually not far from each one of us.”
(enjoy link to for more.. Seeking God)
For The Love of God; because God pursued me…
When God gives us His Love. We receive the Gift that is His promise to us. We were made in His image. His spirit is imprinted upon our Hearts. Even if we forget as we move through this mortal world and grow and work through our lives, we remain intimately connected to The Lord.
In these remarkable experiences I was flooded, overwhelmed and completely filled by His Presence. I was mystified by something that I did not understand yet my heart felt gripped. My entire self felt altered. I could not see life, myself or this world in the same way again. It was as if The Lord had pulled a curtain and revealed a “portion” (we cannot see Him wholly when we are mortal) of Himself and His Kingdom of Love and Everlasting Glory and also the temporal nature of this life, especially of my own mortal heart. All was put in a different perspective.
1 John 4:7- Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
everla“The Christian does not think God will love us because we are good, but that God will make us good because He loves us.”
― C.S. Lewis
“God loves each of us as if there were only one of us”- Augustine
Being a Christian
It is important to mention that being Christian definitely does not mean becoming “perfect” or “sinless” because that is impossible and proud which would be the opposite of all of Christ’s teachings. It is first based upon Faith. Then I would refer you to the page about Loving The Lord which gives more insight a the the end about Christian Life.
For me, it has meant leaving behind the “old self” and being born into a “new creation” by Grace because of my Faith in Jesus Christ as my Salvation, the Lord, that offered a sinless life, to propitiate on behalf of all sin, and died on the cross- washing us in the blood of redemption and rose three days later: was resurrected (witness by 300 or moented in Peter in NT) and gave The Good News, The Gospel. This is the briefest version of New Life that I can summarize but I will gladly add resources later. This is not a testimony page-that would take up a book!
“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of – throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”
― C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
“Knowing God is Life Altering Heart Lifting Heaven On Earth Joy Rushing Love Soaked Peace With Your Kingdom Father Near Here Sovreign.” me.
For me, joy has soaked through all of the crevices of the former life. Relationships have changed. Perceptions have altered so that circumstances do not dictate happiness. Peace does not depend upon the “temperature” of what is outside of you. It is the steadiness and security of Knowing God. It is the delight of being rooted in God, who is always Near, always able to provide for you and to sustain you.
A moment’s prayer or a heart’s nod inward to “see” the Loving Face Our Father and receive His Reassurance if the truest Comfort that can be received and it is lasting, constant, and unconditional.
“Always, everywhere God is present, and always He seeks to discover Himself to each one” ―
I tell you all of these things because they are the true blessing of God’s Love. It is not easy to live a Christian life. It does mean intentional living, personal accountability before God and new perspectives that challenge life, relationships and old beliefs, even about yourself. The most radical change for me has been that I live with joy and peace. This joy does not cease regardless of circumstances. Yes, it can dim at times but it returns, and gets stronger and bolder. I do not become stronger, my FAITH and source of SECURITY in God get bolder and more steadfast.
Faith holds it all together
Faith, which all of this is based upon becomes the Rock that holds everything together. It is your cornerstone. My Faith is what allowed me to believe in God, and to receive his Grace. Everything flows from there. I love this quote on Faith.
Faith is a living and unshakable confidence. a belief in God so assured that a man would die a thousand deaths for its sake. — Martin Luther
Now as I have passed my 66th birthday, I am so grateful for all of the blessings that The Lord that granted and soaked into my life – my church, my friends, my family, my mentors, the plentiful provisions, His Holy and sacred Presence in my life and most of all, the way that He has found a way to be real and personal, relational and present–not out in a distant and far universe but so close, so very close up that I can reach and touch His Shining Face from here at any moment of the day or night when I turn to Prayer. God is Here. He is Near.
God is Complete Love, The Joy of a Heart knowing Peace, we experience His Comfort and The Presence of His Life here and now.
When we pray, we look to Our Father, we look in worship with awe of who our Creator is. This is a way of calling to Him, of humbly “seeing” Our Sovereign from the eyes of our hearts. We name ourselves as His. Our “sights”, the eyes of our heart, are set upon Him and this gaze is secured.
We abide with Him in His Presence by the Power of The Holy Spirit.